without u by iLove_doNgHoKKB

Chapter 1 the past part I
AH! Its U-Kiss! Our fans were screaming at each other or at us? Oh well, they were screaming our name.The seven of us sat down in our seats and we all grinned at our girlfriends, which made them scream even more. Everything came to a blur for a second,and before I know it,screaming fans are in line to shake our hand.I smiled at all my girlfriends and shook their hand.We got a lot of the tastiest food ever invented and Dong Ho got new shoes! Im jealous of that cute little 15-year-old boy.He gets everything! I was glaring at the youngest when someone my age walked up to me.She smiled at me and greeted me in English,"Hi Eli! My name is Eden." Honestly,I was taken aback. "H-hi Eden." I smiled at her.What else am I supposed to say? She stuck her hand out.I took it.How lame am I? She smiled at me again.We both let go and she went over to Dong Ho,who sat next to me.This is the first time I ever appeared so lame in."Hello! My name is Eden and Im your fan." She said the fluently in Korean."Oh shes a Dong Ho fan of course.Who isnt his fan these days?"I replied for the fifth time,"Im stuttering,how lame.What a lame.Because Im never like that in front of girls!" "Boy, you love struck!" Alexander hyung waved his hand everywhere.I can never understand this guy."Well I did go study in China.No, Im not a nerd! So youre love struck!" He grinned at me. "I dont get your reasoning." I stated.He looked at me with an offended look.Well then! I dont get this guy one bit and Ive known him for over three years."What are you guys talking about? I hate it when you guys talk in English. ITS RUDE!" Soo Hyun hyung whined.But then again,I dont get any of these guys.Kevin explained to the non-English speaking ones.Ki seop hyungs eyes widen.Here we go."Wait? Eden,that girl from America?" Dong Ho asked suddenly interested.I nodded.
Alexander punched in the number and put the phone on speaker.Eden answered the phone in Korean."Eden?This is U-kiss Alexander.Hi!" Alexander hyung glanced over at me,his eyes dancing with happiness."She lived in California too?Oh,where in California?"Kevin joined in the conversation."San Diego"Eden replied."Man, I miss the good old days."Alexander hyung glanced at me again,this time with a mischievous grin on his face.The non-speaking ones look irritated"Hey, Eden.Are you busy on Saturday?U-kiss has that day off.Do you want to hang out with us?"."Uh, sure, why not?"She replied."Eli, youre showing up at Coffee Prince Café at 10AM. Dress in your best clothes please."Alexander hyung announced in Korean.



Chapter 2 the past part II
I cant believe I call these people my friend! Here I am, standing in front of Coffee Prince Café in my everyday clothing,a cap,sunglasses,and a surgical mask.Thats the best outfit you can wear to meet up with a girl.Right? "Hello, please come this way." A waiter led the way to the back of the café.I saw Eden there,dressed in a pair of dark blue skinny jeans,a plain black v-neck,and those same black converses she wore the other day.Yeah, I actually observe people."H-hi."I stuttered. Oh my God.I need to stop ruining my charismatic image."Hi!" She grinned at me.She isnt shocked to see only me.I wonder what Alexander hyung did now.I took my seat in front of her.She already ordered.I passed,I need to stop with the caffeine.Awkward REAL awkward."So, how are you?" She asked me."Im doing fine,how about you?" I replied to her in English.And thats how our conversation started.We talked about things like music, dance, clothing we even talked about love.This is how our conversation ended: "Ill see tomorrow, Eli oppa." In a mere 2 hours weve gotten closer than ever.That was how our relationship started.We would meet up whenever I had time.We would talk about the most random things. I would stutter and she would laugh at me.Id go home wondering why I would make a fool out of myself.It went on like that for weeks.But then one day,something life changing happened.She smiled at me,and I felt my cheeks burning.My heartbeat was quick and it was loud and clear in my ears.I went home asking Dong Ho what that meant.I know what youre thinking: Why is he going to ask Dong Ho? Well I dont know! Dong Ho just ignored me and focused on his evil little dog.So I went and asked Alexander hyung.He did his little hand waving thing again.He said I like her.As in I like her not as a friend,but special one.He suggested that I ask her to be my girlfriend.I did.She grinned at me and said yes.Then she hugged me.From that day on,March 10, 2009,we started dating.And from that day, Eden and I faced many obstacles.She was constantly condemned by netizens.Fans stalked her.I felt hopeless because I couldnt do anything about it.It was so bad that my CEO forbade me do take action.The members did all they could to cheer me up,but that was impossible.I refused to get up in the morning to continue my schedule.I refused to do anything.My CEO threatened to drop me from U-kiss and from the company.I agreed with him.I thought this is the best way.But he released many things to the press: he told them that because of fans and netizens condemned Eden that I refuse to do anything eat,sleep,drink,or continue with my activities.He told them that he wished everyone would leave us alone.My CEO let me see Eden again.She seemed so different when I saw her again.When was the last time I saw her?It had been months.I was so happy to see her again.She smiled like she did before.I was finally aloud to see the one.I didnt say anything.Eventually,netizens stopped condemn,fans stopped stalking her.Some fans actually posted on my blog that they were happy to see us together.I was the happiness man ever alive.I thought that we were inseparable nothing could tear us apart."Babe, I love you."I was lost in her warm brown orbs A smile always formed on my face whenever I was with her."Eden Pham, youre still in my heart.Without you,I really miss you.Without you,please forgive me.Without you,youre the only one I love.Cant live without you."



Chapter 3 the past part III
"Oppa, is it true?" Eden asked me,her voice trembling.What the hell is she talking about?I thought."Is what true, baby?"I replied.I was totally clueless to what was going on around there.She handed a magazine to me.On the cover was 2PM.I dont get it."Huh?" Eden sighed and grabbed the magazine out of my hands.She flipped through some of the pages.Then she handed it to me again.U-kiss Eli and Wonder Girls Yoo Bin is THE new celebrity couple? The article started out like this:
What happened to his girlfriend, Eden?I thought Eli claimed that they were inseparable.Or is he cheating on her with the Wonder Girls main rapper,Yoo Bin? Either way, the two rappers were caught holding hands and sharing an ice cream cone.Eli was caught dropping Yoo Bin at her dorm,where they shared a kiss.Not a peck,but a kiss.He even blew a kiss when she walked into the building.Does Eden know that Eli is actually an infamous player?If Eli and Eden are still together,than what will she do?Oh how I pity the foreigner."If I was with Yoo Bin-sshi,than why would I be here, right now?" She shrugged again,"Then where did the pictures come from?"Eden got me there."Where did the reporters get the pictures?" My anger exploded.I didnt blame her for it though."What the hell, Eden!You believe this stupid reporter but you dont believe me? Oh, thats nice.Eden,weve been dating for 6 months,and you dont trust me one bit?Dont say it unless you mean it.'She snapped at me.Why the hell did I scream at her for? We didnt talk for days.Weeks.She tried calling me,but I was a stupid little bastard and ignored her calls.I stopped replying to her text messages.I was being a total jerk to her. One day I got a text message from her."Look,I really want to talk.Im sorry.Please meet me at the park near your dorm at 6 PM today.PLEASE!" I didnt show up.I regret not showing up.She was going to tell me that she still loved me but her dad wanted her to come back home,in San Diego.Eden was going to tell me that she hoped we could maintain a long distance relationship.I didnt show up.She left, back to San Diego.I AM a stupid bastard.I ruined something beautiful.Im an idiot.



Chapter 4 the present part I
"You saw her off?" I asked him.Kevin nodded, "Yeah. She sent a message to both Alexander hyung and I.I was wondering why you werent there to see her go.I told her I could call you but she said it was fine." How could I be so stupid? After finding out that she left, I tried sending her text message and I tried calling her but nothing would come through. She changed her number.
The Present:
"Hyung." Dong Ho called.I looked at him.What does he want now?Soo Hyun hyung interrupted him with a look.I know the guys are trying hard not to mention Edens name around me.But I still think of her even if there is nothing that reminds me of her."Eli, what the hell?I liked it better when you cracked stupid, pointless and not funny jokes," Ki Seop hyung sat next to me and he put his arm around my shoulder."My jokes arent funny?"I find that offensive."Cmon, Eli.Cheer up dude.Its been two months." Alexander hyung told me.Was that supposed to comfort me,because it didnt work.Dong Ho spoke up, "Hyung, youre so inconsiderate.He would know." "What?"Alexander glared at the stupid one."This really isnt making anything better.Im sorry,but this is the truth." I dont want to be anywhere near them right now.'Uh, Im going to my room. So,uh,just leave me alone or something." How else was I supposed to tell them nicely? 'Okay." They all hesitated.Whatever,I dont care anymore.Ive been locking myself in my room ever since the fight I had with Eden.I feel bad because I share a room with Kevin,and hes been sleeping outside for the past two months.I just want to be alone. I want to reflect on my actions.Everyday I come up with the same thing:I am stupid and selfish.Everyday,I remember one thing about the past.Today I want to remember our first official date that was ruined by the dudes.It was Alexander hyung who told me to take her out on a date the instant I told the guys I asked Eden to be my girlfriend."Ask her on a date.'He simply stated.I stared at him strangely.He rolled his eyes at me, "You act like you dont speak English,Eli.I said, Ask. Her. On. A. Date." He pulled the sentence out so slowly that I felt illiterate."Why?" I still cant believe that I asked why.I am the dumbest person youll ever me.I found out that I was scared that she mightve thought that I was aggressive,asking her on a date a day after she agreed to be my girlfriend.'Fine.I'll ask her."And thats how I got him to shut up.He grabbed my phone and placed it in my hand. "Call her." He told me.I can never get rid of this guy.Thats what I thought.But,really,deep in my heart,Im very grateful.I hadnt felt that nervous ever since U-kiss debut stage.My palms were clammy and I was pretty sure I was sweating. remember checking myself out in the mirror before coming.I was wearing my best clothes dress pants,dress shirt,and my favorite pair of Nikes.I thought that I was very sexy (I still am).I also remember what she wore, and how she styled her hair.Eden wore something different.She wore a denim skirt and a cute v-neck.I can still see her wearing those clothes."H-hi,Eden."How come I always stutter when Im near Eden? "Eli!" She smiled at me.That beautiful smile makes my heart all fluttery.I remember calling her a cheesy name. "Hime*!" I called out to her.Her cheeks flushed, and she giggled.I guess she knows what that means.I sat in front of her at a fancy restaurant called The Wallflower.It was quiet and a vanilla scented candle lighted up our table.We ordered our food and talked about anything.I want to feel her hands,I want to hold them so badly.So I grabbed her hands that were on the table.She looked up at me.I smiled at her.She smiled back,and took a hold of my hand.There we were,the candle flickering against our smiling faces,holding hands."Aw! That is the cutest thing I ever witnessed!" I heard Ki seop hyungs voice a few tables away."Oh great." I mumbled under my breath.Eden just laughed.I lectured the guys about spying on people when we got home.A familiar voice spoke in English, "Is that how you talk to your older sister,Mr. Eli?" Oh crap.I opened the door and my big sister entered."What, noona?" I asked.She rarely visits fan girls always trample her and she hates it.I sighed back,'Noona,I know that the way Im treating them is wrong,its just I cant help it. Everything irritates me now.I dont feel like doing anything.I just want to quit." "Is that what Miss Eden wants?" She asked me seriously. "I dont know,"



Chapter 5 the present part II
The CEO decided that it was best if I leave U-kiss.Temporarily.So I decided to fly back to LA to live with my mommy and baby sister.Here,I am,standing in front of the same old house I lived in most of my life."Eli!" I heard a voice call me.It was one of my childhood friends,John.I grinned at him."What are you doing back in America?" He asked me.I shrugged.What am I supposed to say? He chuckled,"Lets go kick it at my pad.I havent heard slang in like years." "Aight, lets go." We walked to his house,which was like 2 blocks away.His house is still the same.Its an average sized,yellow house.I dont get why his mom ever moved in to this YELLOW house.We walked in the messy house. "Ma! Im home!" John literally screamed.His mom came into the living room."Ya I know!" His mom rolled her eyes.Johns mom was kind of big,but she is a beautiful woman.I waved at him mom.Does she remember the cute little Asian boy running around her house making a mess? "Eli boy, is that you?" Mrs. Thomas squinted at me.I nodded.Mrs.Thomas smiled and opened her arms, "Boy,come here and give mama T a hug!" I ran up to her and gave her the best hug I could give."Kay,nough of the reunion,ma! Eli and I got stuff to show," "What the hell is that?"I asked."Speed." He answered. "Huh?What the hell is Speed?" I shrugged back.If I use,itll ruin the life I have ahead of me.But he says it makes one feel good.He took two syringes out."Im going to shoot you up with some." He prepped everything and told me to hold my arm up."Okay,since youre so Asian-washed,Im going to explain this to you slowly." I just nod.I dont care anymore.They probably wont let me back into U-kiss anyways.And my life was over when Eden left.He stuck the needle into one of my vein and the drug zoomed through out my body.I feel like Im floating.I feel happy;I dont remember anything."This crap is great," I told him.He laughed at me. "Well, it is,until you get a damn migraine." My eyes began to blur.Thoughts of Eden once again took the spaces of my head.Tears fell I can feel it.Why am I crying!? In front of John."How come you didnt get some for yourself?" I asked.He grinned at me, "Nah,Im alright.You can have the rest of my Meth.I got plenty more."He threw a bag of Meth and a syringe at me. "I need more already.This makes me feel good." I had watched him earlier and repeated what he did."I looked for another vein to shoot." I nodded.This feels so damn good.Why hadnt I tried this before?This makes me think about Eden without feeling depressed.Eden.Eden.Eden.My beautiful princess,Eden.



Chapter 6 the past part IV An: This is like chapter one, except in Edens Point Of View.
The U-kiss boys come on stage and the fans start screaming."Oh my god, how could they stand this noise?" AH! Its U-kiss! Everyone was screaming.Ill just follow them for now.They all grinned at the fans,which made them scream even more.My friend,Mai and I waited in line for years until we got to the front!I shook hands with everybody,and I got to Eli who was glaring at Dong Ho.DONG HO IS SO FRIGGEN CUTE! "Hi Eli! My name is Eden."I gave him my best smile.I admit he is handsome.'H-hi Eden." He stuttered.AW! How cute! I stuck my hand out.He took it.Woah! His hand,its strong and bigger than my hands.I smiled at him.We both let go,and I walk towards my favorite U-kiss member."Hello! My name is Eden and Im your fan." I fluently said in Korean."Hi Eden! Are you from America?" Dong Ho excitedly asked me.I nodded "Ooh! How long are you staying here?" "I dont know yet."I shrugged."Youre pretty,can I have your number?" Did he just ask for my number? "Sure." And so I have him my number.So, there I was,sitting in my dorm with Mai,when my phone rang.It was an unknown caller ID.It could be Dong Ho! "Hello? Eden? This is U-kisss Alexander.Hi!" Oh my cow! "Oh, hi!" I sounded pretty excited,if you ask me."So, are you staying in Korea for a while?" "Yeah, just a few months though.My dad wants me back in California as soon as possible."Oh, where in California?"Kevin joined in the conversation."San Diego."Thats where Mai and I live."Man, I miss the good old days.Hey, Eden.Are you busy on Saturday?U-kiss has that day off.Do you want to hang out with us?" "Uh, sure, why not?" I replied.What the hell is this?Im going to meet up with U-kiss.Too bad, Im not taking Mai with me."Okay,meet us at Coffee Prince Café at 10AM!Got to go,bye!" "Okay,bye." I hung up.Im going to a famous café to meet up with some hot dudes on Saturday.How awesome is that?I walked into the café wearing a pair of dark blue skinny jeans,a plain black v-neck,and my favorite converses.There was a waiter guy waiting at the front. "Are you Miss Eden?" He asked me.I nodded.He smiled at me and I smiled back."An anonymous person has rented the whole café today.Please follow me." The guy informed me.He seated me and I ordered a caramel macchiato.In a few moments,my order came.I thanked the guy and waited for the Eli to come.Alexander oppa called me yesterday and told me the guys couldnt make it,but Eli could."H-hi." Someone familiarly stuttered."Hi!" I grinned at him.He seemed shocked that I wasnt shocked.Ha-ha.He took a seat in front of me.I asked if he wanted any,but he said hed pass.It was pretty awkward."So, how are you?" I asked him.Ugh.This is so awkward. "Im doing fine, how about you?" He replied to me in English.And thats how our conversation started.We talked about things like music,dance,clothing we even talked about love.This is how our conversation ended: "Ill see tomorrow, Eli oppa." - In a mere 2 hours weve gotten closer than ever.That was how our relationship started. We would meet up whenever Eli oppa had time.We would talk about the most random things.He would always stutter! Its so funny when he does.I would go home smiling like an idiot and Mai would stare at me like Im an alien or something.One day, Eli and I met up.We talked about random things like always.I smiled at him and he started to blush.My heart speed up.Does he like me? I thought.Thats all I thought about that day and on.He asked me to be his girlfriend a few days later.I never felt so happy in my life.I grinned at him,said yes,and gave him a big hug.From that day on,March 10, 2009, we started dating.I was happy,but we faced a lot of obstacles.Netizens constantly talked trash about me,and U-kiss fans would stalk me.Mai tried to help me out but nothing worked.I felt helpless.It got so bad.That day I cried on Mais shoulder the whole day.I would go to school and people would stare or point at me and start whispering amongst themselves.I couldnt stand it anymore.I would watch TV to get a glimpse of Eli.But whenever I saw him,his face was dark and sad.It wasnt until 2 months later until their boss released something to the press.He said: he told them that because of fans and netizens condemn me that Eli refuse to do anything eat,sleep,drink,or continue with my activities.He told them that he wished everyone would leave us alone.I appreciated what the CEO did till this day.His boss let us see each other again.Eli oppa got skinnier and he had bags under his eyes.I smiled at him,though.He didnt say anything,he kissed me instead.Eventually, netizens stopped condemned,fans stopped stalking me.Some fans actually posted on his blog that they were happy to see us together. "Babe, I love you." He would tell me that and look into my eyes.I was the happiest person ever alive. "I love you too, oppa." I would lean in and softly kiss him. One day,Mai walked up to me,her eyes wide."What?" I laughed at her.She handed an open magazine to me.I took it and read the article.My eyes widen too.U-kiss Eli and Wonder Girls Yoo Bin is THE new celebrity couple? The article started out like this: What happened to his girlfriend, Eden? I thought Eli claimed that they were inseparable.Or is he cheating on her with the Wonder Girls main rapper,Yoo Bin? Either way,the two rappers were caught holding hands and sharing an ice cream cone.Eli was caught dropping Yoo Bin at her dorm,where they shared a kiss.Not a peck,but a kiss.He even blew a kiss when she walked into the building.Does Eden know that Eli is actually an infamous player?If Eli and Eden are still together,than wh...I shut the magazine.I didnt have anything to say.Mai went up to me and hugged me.I didnt cry.I couldnt cry."I dont believe this article.Its all a lie."Mai left the dorm and I called Eli to ask him to come over. "Oppa, is it true?"I asked.I feel like crying now."Is what true, baby?" He asked me.He doesnt even know whats going on.I handed the magazine to him.He started at the cover. "Huh?" Oh dear,how can he be so clueless in a situation like this.A sigh escaped my lips.I took the magazine from him and looked for the article.After finding it,I gave it to him. "Do you believe this?" He asked me,giving me an incredulous look."Should I?" Thats exactly what I asked him while shrugging.I dont want to but this is something I have never experienced before."If I was with Yoo Bin-sshi,than why would I be here, right now?" He questioned me.I shrugged again, "Then where did the pictures come from?If it isnt true,then the pictures are photo shopped right?" "I-I do not know." He stuttered again. "So its true.Well you dont know where the pictures came from and you claim that you arent cheating on me."I was getting impatient,and I could tell he was too."What the hell, Eden!You believe this stupid reporter but you dont believe me?Oh, thats nice.Eden, weve been dating for 6 months,and you dont trust me one bit?" He tried to keep calm.He didnt want to yell at me I could tell.How should I have known whom to believe? "WELL IM SORRY! NO ONE INFORMED ME ABOUT BEING YOUR FIRST LOVE.IM SORRY YOU DONT BELIEVE ME! IM GODDAMN SORRY!Dont say it unless you mean it." I snapped.Why did I even bring this up?I shouldve just pretended to be stupid.We didnt talk for days.Weeks.I tried calling him,but he ignored every single one of them.I sent him text messages,but he wouldnt reply.I was breaking down I felt like giving up.My dad called me a few days later and told me that he want Mai and I to come back to the states.There wasnt a choice,so I had to agree.A few hours before my flight,I sent a message to Alexander and Kevin.They saw me off."Do you want me to call Eli?" Kevin asked me.I shook my head."There is no point anymore.Its fine."



chapter 7 the present III
John called me and told me to bring $160 instead.He said hed hook me up with some good stuff.So I walked to his house,high,with $160 stolen from my sisters room.What the hell is wrong with me?We did the handshake and immediately went inside his room.I handed him the money and he handed me 4 Baggies and 3 syringes."Whats this?" I asked him,getting excited. He grinned at me and then replied,"Meth,Canabis,[coke],Ecstasy,and Marijuana." Damn, he hooked me up with some good stuff."Thanks,bro." He nodded and shot himself up with coke.I decided to smoke the drugs out of a pen."This crap is good.I feel so good,have I told you that?" All of these drugs makes one feel good,why are they all illegal?After finishing all the Marijuana and I decided to take the Ecstasy.I dont care if I die.Eden is already gone."Bro,you crazier than I am,and you only started yesterday."John chuckled,taking a drag of the drug.I grinned at him and swallow the Ecstasy pill.It feels like its rushing up to my brain.Oohwee.I feel dizzy now.That night,I stayed over Johns place doing half of the drugs he gave me.And I didnt feel to well,so Mama T wanted to take me to the hospital.John said shes crazy,so here I am,lying in Johns bed,with Mama T taking care of me."Boy,I cant believe John did this to you."Mama T sighed,wiping my burning face with a damp rag."Nah,I wanted to do it.Dont blame John." I managed to tell her,trying hard not to black out again."Boy,do you even remember what you did today?" Mama T asked.I shook my head.'You hit your baby sister,boy." She sighed again,breaking the news to me.I quickly sat up, "WHAT?" She sighed and told me the story.So apparently my baby sister came look for me and went into Johns room,with Mama T behind her.My baby sister apparently saw me taking her money."Oppa, did you take my money?" She asked.I apparently nodded and shot some more drugs up my arm."For drugs?" She gasped.I stood up."Yeah,you got a problem with it?" She nodded,"Yes!One, Oppa, this is illegal!And two, Im saving up money for college," "College?Hell.I bet you arent even smart enough to graduate high school!" "What?So you get dumped,get your pathetic butt kicked out of an idol group,and now youre stealing money for dugs?" "You dont talk to me like that!" Mama T told me that I punched my sister in the face.And thats when she came in,She pulled my baby sister away and slapped me.That was when I blacked out."I got to go see her!" I quickly got out of bed,before falling back down.She shook her head,"No.You get some rest,and you can go home tomorrow." I had to agree, you couldnt change Mama Ts mind.I didnt go home until noon.When I got my home,everyone was waiting in the dining room.My parents both angrily glared at me while my baby sister hid behind my dad.Her eye turned black and she shook.What did I do to her? "Kim Kyoung Jae!" My dad hissed.I backed up a little,"Y-yeah?" "What the hell is wrong with you!?" He yelled.I shrugged. What is wrong with me?Youve only been back for a few days and youre already doing drugs and hurting your sister? I shrugged again."You are a disgrace!Go pack your bags!I forbid you to live here!And you arent aloud to see your sisters anymore."He yelled."Honey!" My mom gasped.My dad glared at her.Tears formed in my eyes.What has become of me? NOW! I walked to my room,tears slipping.Ive totally ruined myself.But dad probably did this for a reason.Maybe if I dont see them,I wont hurt them.I walked back to Johns place,and Mama T saw me with my bags.I walked in and she screamed for John."John Max Thomas,get your ass out here!" John came running out.Mama T can be scary."Whats up?"



Chapter 8 the present IV
I woke up really early and did the rest of the drugs.Hopefully,I wont overdose.A grin spread on my already pale,sunken face as I thought about Eden."I miss you princess" I heard myself whispering.Then I felt warm salty tears in my mouth.What?Am I turning bipolar,or something?Im going to sleep I dreamt of Eden again.But I didnt dream of the past memories.I dreamt of something horrifying."Eden, baby!" I smiled.She pouted at me.I chuckled."What?" "I love you, baby!" I kissed her lips.I felt her smiling against my lips,but she pulled away from me.Her face became sad,and tears formed in her eyes."Mianhae,oppa." She sadly looked at me. 'What? Eden, baby! Why are you sorry?" She walked away from me,and I followed her."Eden, where are you going?" Eden walked towards the cliff."Eden!" I screamed.She stopped,and spun around.Her face was blur.All I heard was Sorry.Then she walked off the cliff. "Eden!" I screamed,and thats when I woke up, with sweat all over.Mama T came rushing in."Eli,boy!Are you okay?" She asked me.It seems like her wrinkles got deeper.I nodded, "Y-yeah.I just got a nightmare." "Okay.John used to get them,but after a while,he didnt even go to sleep at all.And now look at him.My poor boy." I sighed."Mama T.I dont want to do this anymore." "Thats good.You realized it sooner.When John realized he didnt want to do drugs,he was already addicted.If he stopped,he wouldve gone through a withdrawal." That night John overdosed, and died.First,I loose the one I love the most,then my family,and now,my best friend.I need comfort.I went into his room to look for some drugs I used all of mines."Tomorrow, I need to look for Riches, the guy that John told" My baby sister is right,Im a pathetic,butt hurt celebrity that is using drugs,ever since three days ago.Yeah, I just realized how butt hurt I was really was that day.I got butt hurt because she didnt know who to believe how stupid am I?Riches and I are supposed to meet at the alleyway,near Johns house.He said hed hook me up with some good ones,and I dont have to pay."Man,its good to be Asian" (obviously, Riches is Asian) I nodded at him.He handed me all of those drugs I have been using.Where the hell do they get it? I sniffed up some coke instead oh shooting it.My nose burns,and Im dizzy,but besides that Edens smile is entrancing my mind.That beautiful smile her perfect pearl white teeth,her pink lips,her dimples."Eden baby I love you.I hate myself because I scared you and my parents away.I hate myself because I probably die like John.I hate myself because Im a burden to Mama T.I hate myself and theres nothing I can do about it; Im pathetic, useless, disgrace, stupid, loser, Maybe I should go through the withdrawal symptoms and die early.No one needs me here on Earth anyways." Im angry.I have too much angry energy.I need to get it out."ELI!" Mama T screamed.I cant seem to stop though.She got a hold of me."Eli!" Mama T is very strong.No wonder she got me to sit down on my bed.'Calm down,boy." She soothingly told me.I looked at what I did.Clothes were thrown everywhere and ripped.Frames where thrown onto the ground,with glass sprinkled everywhere.Parts of the walls were dented.Practically everything in my room was damage.My knuckles bled,Im breathing hard,and I feel really hot.Mama T handed me a glass of water and took a warm damp rag to clean my knuckles.Even after drinking water Im still breathing hard.The only thing that could calm me down is a drug.I lied.



Chapter 9 the present V
Last night,I dreamt of Eden again,but this dream wasnt as bad as the other dream.Well, Im not sure.I dreamt that Eden told me that I was pathetic,stupid,and that shed never marry a drug addict.I am a failure thats for sure.
Eli baby sisters Point Of View: "O-omma got a c-call from the hospital." I hiccupped.I remember every single detail everything that happened today.Unni replied, with a hint of worry in her voice: "Why?What happened?" We havent told her about oppa doing drugs until now. "O-oppa hes in the hospital.He is d-doing d-drugs." "MWOH.Arraso,go to the hospital right now.Im flying back home." When you take drugs it would make you depressed. It would make you feel sick;it would make you do stupid things.Eli took too many of the drugs that day he overdosed,but luckily,he isnt dead hes alive for a reason.He wore a hospital gown,on the white,uncomfortable hospital bed.He had a mask covering his mouth and nose,and there were tubes sticking into his vein.She ran into Elis room,her face already stained with tears.She ran to his side immediately."Eli!" She fell on her knees and grabbed his hand.He didnt respond.She called his name again.His eyes were closed and that machine kept on beeping.That day,she never left Elis side.Never.She has to be there for him,from now and on.Shell never leave his side ever again.She loves him too much.She softly whispered,gazing at him.His finger slightly moved.She jumped from her seat."Oppa" His finger moved again. "Eli oppa!" Her voice rose.He let out a groan.She let go of his hand and ran to get a doctor.His eyes were still closed with the doctors left.She walked into his room and sat by his side. "Eli oppa?" She softly asked,with hope in her voice.Eli struggled to open his eyes,but he finally opened him
Eli Point Of View: Why does that voice calling for me sound so familiar? That voice called for me again.My eyelids they are so heavy.When they opened,everything was so blurry.I had to blink a few times.And there she was,in front me."E-Eden?" My voice cracked and it was hoarse.When I realized it was really her,I repeated her name.
"Oppa", She smiled at me,I can see the tears forming in her eyes.Tears also formed in my eyes.She had to see me this way. "Eden, its you." I felt the warm tears stream down to the sides of my face.I tried sitting up,but its impossible.a few day later,"Oppa,why did you start using drugs?" Eden asked me as she pushed me around in a wheel chair."I dont know.I was stupid and plus,my heart was broken.I didnt know what to do.Using drugs made the good memories come back,and it made me feel good" "Eli please stop.Youre going to kill yourself.I dont want anything horrible to happen to you." "Eden,baby,Im not going to use anymore.One month is enough.Im sorry for hurting you,for being a jerk,for making you worry.Im so sorry."



Chapter 10 the present VI
Eden,everyday,would attend rehab with me.With her by my side,I need nothing else.I regained my trust from my parents,but my little sister still has trouble and I am fine with that.Its my fault.She intertwined her hand with mine as we walked down the long,well lit hallway towards the classroom.I looked at her.She looks no different;she still has that smile,those eyes that Ill never forget."Baby," She let go of my hand and faced me."Hm?" I grabbed her and gave her the best hug I could."Please, dont leave me. Without you,I was hurting inside.I was lost.I missed you.Youre the only one I love.I cant live without you." I whispered into her ears.A few months later: Eden and I live together in a small apartment near my parents place.I couldnt be any happier.My phone rang,with U-kiss new song as my ring tone.Boy, I surely missed the guys.I looked at the caller ID.It was the company.I glanced at Eden.She smiled,and nodded at me, telling me to answer the phone.Im going back home with my boys, and the one I love. Wish me luck.



story by,iLove_doNgHoKKB



*this is my fav one!!